I made it through today.
All week I’ve been dreading today. Actually, I’ve been dreading it for the past 365 days. One year ago today, that awesome man you see above was killed because some guy just HAD to have the cd that was in the floor of his car and ran a stop sign. That’s my Uncle Wayne. And I still miss him. Alot.
I made that page several months ago, kind of as a healing process. It felt good. I still love that page. It helped. But I still miss him. It’s still sinking in, probably because I didn’t get to see him often anyway since we live far away. But there are days when all I can do is think of him. Last week, I suddenly realized that I was singing, “Are you Washed in the Blood of the Lamb” at the top of my lungs while driving down I-64. That was the song that Mom, TJ, and I sang at his funeral. That was his favorite. And it just popped in my head the other day.
So, I got through today. I only cried once. I have a headache now from not sleeping. But maybe, now that I made it through today, I’ll get some better sleep this week.
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And, because I have a thing about never ending a thought badly, I’ll end with this. To my dear husband…I know you read my blog. You confess that you read my blog. Feel free to leave a loving comment every once in a while!!! (or, will that give away your secret that you aren’t really working when you are at work?????) 
Hugs, Tracey. Remembering is healing. Keep singing.
Karen
Comment by Karen — March 6, 2006 @ 12: 47